I don’t care to be the prettiest. Or the fastest. Or the funniest. Or the smartest. I’ve only ever wanted to be thought of as interesting. It’s something I’ve wondered most of my life. “Does this person think I’m interesting?” “Am I not intriguing enough?” “How should I be to get them to take interest in wanting to be in my company?”
So I never tried to be the best looking. I loathe attention — believe me. I’m a ‘walk out on stage at the end and briefly bow and quickly hop back on to my production chair where I feel is where my spotlight is’ kinda girl. I never cared to be the fastest runner or the best athlete. Okay, so you can sprint a mile in 2.5 seconds.. Big whoop. I knew I was sort of funny at kind of a young age so it wasn’t really something I thought I had to compete for among my peers. And being the smartest in a lot of classrooms only means you’re really good at remembering what you repeatedly read although the application of it may be weak. So I can’t say I ever desired the very top of any list, ever for myself. Maybe for my parents happiness.
But I have always wondered if people thought that the girl who places 3rd and has the 8th highest GPA in 9th grade is interesting? Do they remember me at all, at any point for any reason? Or will they never remember ever meeting me? Am I unforgettable, you think? If you’re reading this right now, are you still thinking about me? Am I interesting? What about me caught your eye? And more importantly, what about me made you think of me in the middle of the day when I’m not around, if you even do?
I don’t ask these out of insecurity, but out of sheer curiosity of knowing what it is about me that catches eyes or ears.. or noses, if you know me. I spray my perfumes & body sprays endless times. You know I gotta smell good. So was that it? You liked my fragrance? So you had to approach and let me know, “girl you smell good!” If you smelled that scent when I was not around, would I be the person you thought of?
Did I catch your interest? I hope so
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whitty lianne 