My Deepest Fear

I’m learning myself every day. In that learning, I’m developing an air of confidence that I haven’t allowed to myself for…a long while. I find myself constantly reiterating the infamous quote — “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?” and I think to myself.. “why won’t you let yourself be great?” What I learned about myself is that I do have a fear of, not inadequacy, but power beyond measure. I’m not afraid of my darkness. I’m afraid of this luminous sphere of amazement that my aura possesses and I have tried to hold it inside for too long. Why am I playing small? I morphed it into feeling like a fear of failure but really, it was the fear of how great I can be. And now it just doesn’t make much sense. Life doesn’t come around twice and I’m meant to shine. Too worried about exuding a lofty, conceited aura I limited myself and restricted what could be and probably is eminence. But not anymore…