just for now vs. forever.

hai, you amazing individual!
Thanks for stopping by! (:

I know I’ve been gone for some time. I’ve had a rather busy week which consisted of my much anticipated WPC experience and Austin weekend, but here I am with a flow of posts for you all (: before I get to that, I wanted to briefly jump into and express a few thoughts I’ve been bombarded with as of  late.

Not too long ago, I made, what I guess you could call a motivational/inspirational post about change.. the fact that it is inevitable and that it should be embraced no matter how smooth or blunt it may present itself. In the past year alone, my life has been a prime example of a whirlwind of constant change and I do believe I have finally found myself in a position to where I feel slightly overwhelmed. Of course, how it usually happens, triggered by one single situation which forces your eyes to be pried open to everything else. Life can be so unforgiving. What I’ve been wondering is, how do you decipher and recognize things that are in your life for only a certain time and those that are there for the long run? We constantly find ourselves latching on to what is only present for the time being, mistaking it for a forever thing and even hoping that it stays around. And similarly, we push away and ‘protect’ ourselves from those things we are certain are for a season, when in reality, we’ll need them for the long run. And after making these mistakes, we end up disappointed in ourselves, and in those that we thought were meant for forever, we end up hurting and unable to move past what we thought would once hold us up the way we needed. Of course, ’embrace change’ but this kind of change is different. Its one you thought you’d be prepared for because you thought you had it all figured out, when in reality you didn’t. You held on to what was hurting you and let go what was meant to protect you. I really have been attempting to figure out how to spot the difference between the two in all aspects. It is most likely one of those parts of life where you just learn as you go, not ever fully grasping just how to separate the two, but making you appreciate it when you do happen to get it right.